Friday, February 04, 2005

Choice
"What will be will be" has been my fighting motto ever since the day i lost her in the year 2002 Feb. God, why did you put me into this situation again whereby i have to choose between Dignity and Her. The only difference about this time is her heart is no longer with me. Slowly, gradually and eventually, i will lose my most insignificant and small place in her heart and mind. Wait and wait, is the most i can do? V-day is coming and she's not going to be my the other half that will accompany throughout they "happy" day.

Another guy will be her company and i can only see from far isle... Can i be, once again, the Bryan who fear no people and no things? I don't wish to think about her again but my heart telling me NO. Though i had turned my back on her, it doesn't mean my feeling for her has died. It's just that i can't bear and don't wish to see her taking one step at a time in leaving me. Everynight, i been telling myself to hold her in my arms and tell her how much i feel for her. All this has become null and history has repeated itself.

THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS... .to see that she's happy with the other guy from afar. When the day she needs someone the most, i will always be there for her. Lending her my shoulders and ears. God bless.

Bryan Sng [8:13 AM]

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