Friday, September 17, 2004
too tired```
jus finished my dragonboat land training... reached home at about 10pm. wah todae do gym like mad. wif melvin, damn fast but quite good sets as we really stretch and improve our muscles. todae mus rest well and if tml can wake up early and go for soccer. (hope so)
bryan feel guilty today. sorrie to sam and jie... and also xn.. hehe sorrie ar todae bang onto u.. geeezzz... really MY, hope u noe wad i mean hahax... :P
jie thanks for ur guidance and i hope i can concentrate on my studies and sports to change the ppl's view on meeee. saying im lazy and useless. dotsss
Bryan Sng [11:16 PM]
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
jus wanna let u noe
that i actually wun gif up on u.. just that i wanan watch u living ur life happily, that's all . dun wanna put too much stress in u. k.. i will work hard in my studies and sports too... for ur sake, my sake and jie sake. of coz my family sake too~ k.. believe in me
Bryan Sng [6:34 PM]
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woops..
todae acounting ICA was a bad one... tot i studied sufficiently, but i dun think i can fare well after i did my test. 1st 2 qns were alright but the last one i did not read the question properly. shld be bank noted wrongly but i went to put account book noted wrongly. -_- god... hope i can change that mistake of mine~ arghhh...
enuff of studies. tml still haf to battle with ESSIt and C maths. hope it will be a good one.. hahax..
err.. last nite when i said those things to her, i tot my passion for her was over, but when i saw her todae i realise forgetting her is almost impossible. omgggg i tried not to look @ her but i still did. eh.. wads wrong wif me... but nvm, getting 14A for my tertiary life is another target for me. after wad had happened, i haf decided to let things take it course naturally. right? lols.. dun bother much about it and jus study.. hope one day will fulfil all my dream.
Bryan Sng [5:30 PM]
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
my passion for u is over`
i had finally plucked up my courage and ask her again. knew the result will be a negative one. that's y my passion for her has gone... disappear.. though i really like her.. a love cannot be sustain with jus one side... and im prepared to give up. i haf told her that our matters are over, and we are jus classmate... no more of those 'gan ga' feeling le. jus a pure friendship which i should phrase it as we will greet " hello" when we c and jus a "goodbye" when we go home. nothing more i will expect from her and myself.
lols i cant believe she is the 2nd ger tat i will ...drop tears for dots. tat's lyk oh shit..after eunice, i tot i wun cry agian... eunice is the 1st ger i used LOVE on.. eversince we broke, no more shitty words like "love" come out from my mouth. the word holds a phobia to me.. and im scare... really scare...
to jie: thanks alot for your encouragement but i already expected the outcome althoguh i acted tough infront of her when she told me tat.. im jus acting, cant u c? lols.. i still can luff~ ha ha ha...
to her(if u can c): good luck in ur future endeavour. we are foreva classmate......... though i may stil...l..i...k...e... u............ dot........................................................
Mood: sad,dejected,sucks.
Bryan Sng [5:31 PM]
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
just kinda fuck off k?
just kinda` fuck off from me k? your attitude jus pissing me and burning my ass. trying to act good in studies right, saying im not needed rite. jus fuck off la. i know im stupid but im trying. but u? trying to act good when u are fucking not. u fucking jus dun fit to say people tat way. if u try to get close to me in the module im stronger @, jus fuck off. i wun even gif u the answer. don't ask me for the fucking solution when u fucking think u are fucking great right? do it yourself. come on get a life and live in it. don't jus por ppl when u need them and fuck their backside when u think they are in your way. think in other people's shoes. when ppl ask me for help, i nv turn them off. even if i dunno i will find the answer for them. u? omg goodness sake, jus get a life la. thats all.
Bryan Sng [7:03 PM]
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Monday, September 13, 2004
its 8.30pm now and i had reached home for about 2hours. been thinking thru wad i had done todae. sorrie jan jie to make u sad and worried for me again. i dunno y, at the thought tat i will lose her, i can go out of my mind... really ... jie haix. she's the 2nd ger which i treasure so much. been really hurt one year back... i tink my dear cousins will know who is tat ger.
im not being autism or wad, im really bad in studies but trying to really study hard now. for the sake of my future, for the sake of jie and her. really really hen xiang ta :) jie sorrie for todae once again! take car.e. haixxxxxx
Bryan Sng [8:20 PM]
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train and train and train. jus finished my sea training at kallang. damn shag`. couldnt perform well today cause my heart has been moving aboutttt.... :( dots. miss her so much though she may not miss me. lols. yeah its okie ya.. expected de.. lols. ermm jus bought 3 training singlet .. red in color and at $4 each haha. also bought a new pair of TRAIL slipper which ruben bought too. although quite slippery and lousy but its $4 and wearing it is a comfort to my feet . haha..
gonig to do my homework (java and marketing) then get a good rest and prepare for school and gym trainng tml. geez. be back tonite to touch up on my blog! ciaoz
Bryan Sng [8:31 AM]
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just changed my blogskin as the previous look bad when the photo cannot be uploaded as the background.
i went to
http://www.blogskins.com/ and find this blog damn cute , erm i mean the doggies and is one of the top rated. haha. so jus extract it and put as my skin.
i have to rush my post as im quite late for my sea training @ kallang. will be meeting jason at 10.10am , sembawang first cabin and im like oh gosh, its 9:37am and im still here dilly dally haha... i will write my post at the end of the day with more news. OK~ gotta go.
Bryan Sng [12:35 AM]
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